Today (July 8) is my 70th birthday which is astonishing to me. There is a much younger person within me that definitely does not feel as if she has been around the sun 70 times. At the same time there is a wise old woman who walks with the young one, whispering words of wisdom. I have seen lots of changes in this lifetime, both in the world around me and in the way I navigate through my life. Change is exhilarating and scary and painful and frustrating and confusing. There are times when it feels totally out of control and other times when it seems as if things are moving at a snail’s pace. Here’s something I read today that really spoke to me.
“Some periods of our growth are so confusing that we don’t even recognize that growth is happening. We may feet hostile or angry or weepy and hysterical, or we may feel depressed. It would never occur to us, unless we stumbled on a book or a person who explained it to us, that we were in fact in the process of change, of actually becoming larger, spiritually, than we were before. Whenever we grow, we tend to feel it, as a young seed must feel the weight and inertia of the earth as it seeks to break out of its shell on its way to becoming a plant. Often the feeling is anything but pleasant. But what is most unpleasant is the not knowing what is happening. Those long periods when something inside ourselves seems to be waiting, holding its breath, unsure about what the next step should be, eventually become the periods we wait for, for it is in those periods that we realize that we are being prepared for the next phase of our life and that, in all probability, a new level of personality is about to be revealed.” ~Alice Walker
So this is one of those periods of growth and change for me as I step into my 70’s. Yes, I do sometimes feel hostile or angry, weepy or hysterical, even depressed. Definitely questioning what is next up on this grand adventure called my life?
I have offered sacred circles for many, many years now. Initially they were weekly, open to women and men looking to gather in ceremony and play. Then I offered them monthly but not necessarily at the Full Moon. At some point I began offering them at the Full Moon and the New Moon because that is what people said they wanted. Gathering in circle, engaging in ceremony, growing community, drumming, singing, sharing, offering a place for you to show up, be seen, heard, to learn, to be loved, safe. Now I am not sure if they fill a need. Attendance is spotty, sometimes with 5 or 6 of us, sometimes 1 or 2 or no one. Do these circles call to you and fill a need? Or are you wanting something else? Do you want to be part of Full and New Moon Circles? Let’s explore these questions. Send me an email
Yes, there will be a Full Moon Circle on Thursday, July 10, 7:30 p.m. If it’s not raining we will gather around a fire. If it’s raining we will be outside under the tent or inside in the healing room. Please RSVP your “yes” by 2:00 p.m. on the 10th.
With Love and Gratitude,
Sabrinajoy
Upcoming Moon Circles:
Full Moon July 10